Suffering, the first step towards Enlightenment

Have you ever noticed when your life is going great then all of the sudden from out of the blue, bang a big dark weight just hit you. Or you move along and you get up everyday of your life and it gets to be drudge worse and worse. What do think causes that? Is it a bad sign you are under or the parents were not good enough when you grew up or I am not lucky, God is turning His head on me? Well the answer is a simple as the nose in front of you. It is you and only you. You are projecting an image to the Universe of the kind of person you want to be. So if you want to be a person hitting depression or look at a pile of bills and worry about them then that is what the Universe is offering you. Remember-ASK,SEEK and KNOCK well because of Yin-Yang principles that is what you get. Remember one cannot live without the other...Just like you might be the Light of the World but you still carry a dark shadow with you.
Yin-Yang principles are the same as Karma, cause and effect, I always emphasize the Laws of Attraction in my wording because I have found true enlightenment and the path that NOW I do not seek, it seeks me. Just consider yourself a magnet, we have the Laws of Gravity that works so well and the Laws of Attraction. The LOA is working 24/7 and is not biased on who you are. The Universe is a feeling Universe and it is the Highest Awareness that is known to the human condition. Because you are an emotional and a feeling being the Universe feels you out and gives you what you want and it is AFFIRMATIVE place here, which means it does "not" NO,NOT or NON. Ever notice you say, "I do not want to be late...and you are." That is because the Universe is responding to your desire.
I always talk about the subcon(subconsciuos ) alot because this is the place of your beliefs and it is very powerful if you know how to use it right it will be your servant. The subcon listens and feels to everything you put into your consciuos. Then it talks to the Higher Consciuosness and responds to that.
It is started off early as 7-8 years old. We were born into the Universe with innocence and a care free Spirit. When our parents sent us off to feel what was out there, school, friends, television whatever, this gave us references or roots we will call them (Quoted from James Arthur Ray). so now on our journey through this path we picked certain truths about judgements and things of non-appeal or distaste. We listened to our friends talk about things in their lives that seemed to make sense in our lives. Now when we listened to them we developed a title for our belief system. Next we went to another group of friends and they said the same thing the last group said. Amazing coincidence. Now we get older and we carry this with us. Are you with me so far? The whole point is because of our developing ego, we want to fit.
The next part of this is that it skyrockets out of control when we are 17-18. Hormones blasting and we want to compete and win and prove a point. So we do so and leave the true nature we are...SPIRIT that manifested our physical body like God made man in the Image of Himself. As we go through life we always feel like we are missing something. We have great health, wealth and very successful...These are fine qualities to have but because we still lack something we develop in the process fear, anger, guilt, lust, worry and the biggest sin of all IGNORANCE. You just became ignorant, now what? Let go, be grateful you got to that point because you were only a tool for God to get you there but your ego put that other negative stuff there, be positive always because God built you that way, move in the direction your body is facing...Straight Ahead (my personal enlightenment). God is the SOURCE and the Giant Magnet that is pulling you there. Do not resist because if you do, you become salmon in an Alaskan stream. You procreate and die only to start the process over again. Esther Hicks, famous teacher and channeler of entity Abraham, states by throwing away our oars (resistance) and move downstream things come to us and to me that is a belief I have in my subcon and it is happening all the time in my life. Life only goes in one direction, but remember there is another direction and that is only if you resist life as mention of the things above that your wants you to have.Yin-Yang principle.
So now that you are on the path of everything positive, what is next? Alignment. I have been seeking this for years and believe I am on to something. There are magnetic bands that go around the earth that you cannot see. It is called Gravity. There are magnetic bands in front of you, you cannot see called Laws of Attraction. I had a dream many years ago in 1985 that gave me a glimpse of removing my beautiful shell or veil, in Kabbalah we call it the ego, and it went like this...I was at a restaurant and seen everyone in the light with this veil, my mother, sister, my friend and people around me had it on. The meaning behind this was that the Light from the Lord could not penetrate the Spirit because it was blocked by the veil (ego). Mine was coming off in front of my eyes and I said in great feeling...I know the reason why we have coincidences in our lives and then awoken from the dream, but it was so prophetic that I search all my life to find the reason and believe I have it now. Those invisible gravity and LOA lines itersect at exact points to make a positive being and finally connect Spirit with Source/God/Higher Intel. Once that is achieved it is called alignment and total alignment brings about total enlightenment. Your target is met. Now you see the Universe instead of externally because from the get go you had Spirit and it lived a subjective reality and no other. I was mediatating 3 weeks ago and an inner voice told me ...THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE. To me that meant once the ego dissolves,the veil, your Spirit coincides with you to live harmoniuosly in the Universe.
Mind all of you that read this just accept it as my opinion and my own fact or truth. I have suffered a great deal in my life, looking for self pity, worry, guilt, a marriage that was almost on the rocks after 27 years at the time, disfunctional family growing up, suicide attempts twice but rebounded of course. A military life that I endured painfully during the most crucial times in the history of man.What I found out that all the stuff "I " was complaining about was "me". nobody else. Once I established that, I found the inner strength and immense determination to arise just like Moses staff in the desert, pull my bootstraps up, take it like a MAN, say SO WHAT and put a period at the end of it. Also thank God for helping me put a period at the end of it. Now every where IAM, I AM.
Four words of ZEN are...SUFFER-LOVE-JOY-FORGET. If you are the first word, you are on the path of your enlightenment. Bodhidharma said to Huike, a man who cut his arm off to seek his same enlightenment, ZEN will be known to a whole, only very few will practice it or live it. My intent to you is ZEN.
I appreciate you reading this and have a great life that you want to have. Peace(+)
Dom DO-ZEN,FRO-ZEN with ZAZEN on the HORIZEN in my ZENDOM